December 21, 2010, feels pretty far but at the same time pretty close. So much stuff needs to be done. And because I wanted John and I to a have a blog, what better way to start but at the beginning.
The love Story.....
John just got back from his mission, and was visiting a mutual friend of ours named Lindsey Boyce now Lindsey Lewis. While he was visiting her I came in. (Her and I were roommates) I orgininaly was going to go strait to bed, but after seeing him, I decided not to. Who knew that, that decision would be the best decision I ever made!
After he left the APT, he went onto Gmail chat and started talking to Lindsey, hoping that she would let me talk to him. (I was hoping the same thing). That night we ended up talking on Gmail chat and scheduled our first date. (I think its fun that we will always have our first real conversation documented, I often read it and make fun of it, its really funny, And I can't believe I said some things...I'm such a dork)
Anyways...I was a half hour late to the date. I don't remember being late, but John says I was. We went on a hike to the "Y" and he serenaded me with his ukulele! :) He even had me put a flower in my hair. It was real cute. He didn't know the song he was singing, he was making up the tune, but I knew the tune, SO after he was finished I sang him the song, and I'm pretty sure I danced the dance that went with the song...(i can't believe i did that either...I'm such a nerd) (John fell in love with me, so I did something right)
While we were on the "Y" the view looked out to the city and to the Provo Temple. So naturally we talked about church and our goals in life. Everything just felt natural to be with each other. It was really nice. But it felt too natural...And it scared me to death!!
After a bit of dating and he being perfect, I had to do something! So like any women who was scared of getting married. I blocked him from my life. Literally! hahah my goodness. Blocked him from my phone, face book, and Gmail. hahaha poor guy. I knew that if I continued dating him it would lead to marriage and I was scared.
Luckily, I had Africa to forget about him...and fortunately I didn't! :) But I was still scared. And Luckily John never could forget about me, every time he would think, "Hey that girl's cute, I should ask her out..." I apparently would e-mail him, or somebody would say somthing that would remind him of me. But a guy can only handle so much, in order to forget about me, he had to delete me from his life too. But that didn't last too long...
A couple months after Africa we went to dinner together. I was going because he was the last person I remember being truly happy with, and John went in hopes of finding out I wasn't as amazing as he thought I was. The dinner went great! He looked SO good! And conversation just flowed! It was great and I loved seeing him! After our dinner that didn't end till around 1:00am He was all ready to start our relationship again, but I was still scared. I unblocked him from my life, and stayed in contact, but just at a distance. He asked me on a date...which I accidentally missed...(and I had to put that part in because I'm the only girl who has stood him up on a date. My bad. I had completely forgot about it). And I guess its part of our story.
Then the best thing happened. Our mutual friend Lindsey got engaged. I love her to death, so I had to be there. Naturally John came into my head. Lindsey and John have been friends forever, and of course he would be at the wedding. So I contacted him. I was hoping he would be driving up and we could split the gas money. Unfortunetly for my wallet he was already in Oregon.
That summer we began to chat back and forth. John was being really careful of what he said, because he wanted our talking to continue. In the end Stephanie (my friend and friend to Lindsey) and I ended up sleeping at Johns house.
I was so excited to see him! And I was secretly hoping that he still liked me. But I knew he would be hesitant to start anything, so I also went hoping that he didn't hate me. When I saw him, my stomach started flipping! He was such a gentlemen! And I loved the way he treated his mom. While I was in Oregon we flirted a bit when he asked me if I wanted to start things back up. I wanted to, but I didn't want to hurt him. I didn't want to get back with him unless I knew that it was all going to work out. So I prayed. And I'd never felt so much peace in my life. So as I was getting into my car for Utah, John asked me one last time if I "Would think about it" and I said,"I already have" I then smiled and got in my car.
John thought that we would start dating and he would have to be really careful with everything he did and said, so he wouldn't scare me off. But what ended up happening was I scared him, he never expected that I would want to be with him as much as he wanted to be with me. Shortly after getting back from Oregon, John asked me to marry him, and I said yes! I wasn't scared anymore, and John was thankful! :) I'm just thankful that he never forgot about me. Most of all I'm thankful that our story will never end!